I wrote a little bit earlier while still kind of stunned and freaking out about my grandmother finding out about my sex work. I wanted to explain a little… View More

So I am right now in an airplane that is shaking around so much I feel somewhat certain we are all going to die tonight. In which case, I need to get this… View More

Trigger Warning: There is stuff on this list that could squick you out, or trigger you in some deep dark places. That's part of why people like these things, but also why it might be hard to read- clowns, dentistry, ageplay, these things stir up some crazy feelings and thoughts in us, visceral reactions. Some people like to play with that, others steer clear- either decision is a-ok!  I was on Facebook,… View More

If you weren't at last weekend's Cum and Glitter performance, you missed out. Big time. I'm sorry for you. I don't have photos of everyone's number, but here's the teaser photos for my scene with Poppy Cox, a delicious pinkish-purple haired bike smut babe who came down… View More

it may not always be so; and i say that if your lips, which i have loved, should touch another's, and your dear strong fingers clutch his heart, as mine in time not far away; if on another's face your sweet hair lay in such a silence as i know, or such great writhing words as, uttering overmuch, stand helplessly before the spirit at bay; if this should be, i say if this should be- you of… View More

the words hit like a tsunami.   i was watering our future straightening the linens making space for you in my life warming the hearth for you when you came home.   it was a beautiful day. we had kissed, declared our… View More

Update: -I have spent a lot of time containing my incredible anxiety so that I can be someone people can get support from. When I moved here, I vowed I didn't want to be read as crazy anymore, so I hid it, mostly successfully. -Things have been close to a tipping point for a while. -Mike left me a week and a half ago, in part because my fear was controlling him and it wasn't functional, in… View More

1. 11:11AM Thursday October 4   the sun blares like nothing's changed nothing's changed right?   your ring is still on my finger where you put it   so nothing's changed   and yet i'm falling, falling, falling there's something wrong with my heart there's something wrong shaking my head in disbelief no, this isn't… View More

Last month I celebrated my 29th birthday, and I spent it feeling very much like an adult- a Groupon-funded spa… View More

So, I saw on Tumblr this awesome post by Pervocracy about what sex positive means to them. I really love and agree with their post, and it made me consider my critique of "sex positive" as a catch-all term and why I tend to not identify with it generally (though probably would if Pervocracy's definition was more widespread). I'm also… View More