So I haven't updated for a couple of weeks, in part because I've been really busy planning for upcoming… View More

“When you have nobody you can make a cup of tea for, when nobody needs you, that's when I think life is… View More

This last week, I had a meltdown. The Boy and I almost broke up (twice), communication seemed to be at a standstill, everything was just Too Much. I cracked, and… View More

wegotism (no 'u' in moving on... but there is in 'future'...) (2003) you say i mirror your interior, the things you hide behind your eyes you tell me that you want to reach in the looking glass it's hard to piece back together a past when it's been smashed stained colors and made beautiful, worshiped like a church and i think you're still… View More

Trigger warning: Abuse, mention of roots of Thanksgiving I tend to be fairly good at finding things to be grateful for every day, so in some… View More

Trigger Warning: This discusses abuse, why someone would stay in an abusive situation, self-blame, loss of friends. It's part of a series about losing… View More

It's been a little while since I've last updated this blog. I'm hoping to write more regularly in 2014, but I've found it strange how the… View More

I'm usually fairly secure in my fat body. Most days I love my round tummy, and my stretch-marked breasts, and my thick thighs, and even my jiggly upper arms. I perform in pornography, have… View More

Every summer is a constant battle between wanting to feel comfortable in the clothes I'm wearing and not die… View More

Trigger warning: frank discussion of suicide Ok. I've been sitting on these feelings for a long time, and some of my dear readers have probably heard me rant about this in person, but I have a bone to pick with some… View More