I always thought that the way in which my muscles spend more time tense than relaxed was normal. I figured waking up in the middle of the night because… View More

I have made it my mantra ever since my last suicide attempt, now almost 2 1/2 years ago, that vulnerability is strength. I tell myself that, I tell my friends that, it informs my writing. It's a concept… View More

"I can almost touch the soil beneath your whisperI can almost feel the hopes you left behindI can almost touch the soil beneath your whisperI can almost feel the hopes you left… View More

Wow. I'm listening to 90s music (currently "Fade Into You" by Mazzy Star) and going through my livejournal while piecing together a confessional entry on threesomes. Having had an amazing one this last weekend (which you'll hear more about… View More

With this post, I am founding a new category- it's the poly PTSD category, yessir! Because I have a lot of trigger points around poly and it seems like when I talk about it on social media, many… View More

I wanted to write something about some of the songs my exes put on mixtapes for me, or introduced me to, as a way of describing them, and us, and why these songs still sting my heart a little every time I hear… View More

There are only a handful of things I like to be playfully competitive about. The occasional Scrabble game. Costuming for an… View More

So anyone who's followed my blog for any length of time knows that I have an anxiety disorder. This has manifested in a few different ways in my life- I've come out about my… View More

I decided this week that I was going to seriously attempt to end two of my "bad habits". I say "bad habits" in quotes because I think that they can be thoroughly enjoyable vices for some.… View More

I have a confession to make. I don't know how to "have fun". Or to "relax". Things that people seem to be able to recognize more readily than "what should I do with my life" or… View More