Trigger Warning- frank discussion of suicide When a well-known porn star direct messaged me and tenderly asked if there was anything she could do to help with my struggles, and if it would be ok to signal boost… View More

The hitachi hummed as I scrunched my eyes shut, lying on the padded bench and steadying my breath. Even with my eyes closed I could see the glare of the… View More

It's been super trendy to discuss at length how call out culture is toxic and we need to… View More

I always thought that the way in which my muscles spend more time tense than relaxed was normal. I figured waking up in the middle of the night because… View More

I'm a clown who hates April Fool's Day. Weird, right? This should be a special day for mischief, it's the Day of the Clown, a day for laughter and silly hoaxes. It's… View More

I feel like I need to offer a content warning for turning lemons into lemonade, or seeing the positive side of things, or whatever. I'm not normally such a ray of sunshine and I don't want y'all to be surprised or… View More

“What happens when people open their hearts?" "They get better.” ― Haruki… View More

Wow. I'm listening to 90s music (currently "Fade Into You" by Mazzy Star) and going through my livejournal while piecing together a confessional entry on threesomes. Having had an amazing one this last weekend (which you'll hear more about… View More

"She said I don't know if I've ever been good enoughI'm a little bit rustyAnd I think my head is caving inAnd I don't know if I've ever been… View More

I'm not exactly new to the world of internet dating or casual sex hookups. I'm on OKCupid. I've been on PlentyofFish, and Match, and Alt, and all the rest of them.… View More