(title from the Violent Femmes) Breakups, while painful, are also an excuse for me to delve whole-heartedly into my favourite breakup songs. I have so many, particularly as I… View More

This last week, I had a meltdown. The Boy and I almost broke up (twice), communication seemed to be at a standstill, everything was just Too Much. I cracked, and… View More

wegotism (no 'u' in moving on... but there is in 'future'...) (2003) you say i mirror your interior, the things you hide behind your eyes you tell me that you want to reach in the looking glass it's hard to piece back together a past when it's been smashed stained colors and made beautiful, worshiped like a church and i think you're still… View More

1. 11:11AM Thursday October 4   the sun blares like nothing's changed nothing's changed right?   your ring is still on my finger where you put it   so nothing's changed   and yet i'm falling, falling, falling there's something wrong with my heart there's something wrong shaking my head in disbelief no, this isn't… View More

2. 12:41 Saturday October 20   sometimes it still hurts. but sometimes, when i think about everything in context i get so angry i want to shoot you in the forehead with a bullet made of the engagement ring you bought me after asking me for the third time. lying to me for the third time. and you left our three year relationship via email while at work and then had… View More

3. 3:15PM Saturday, October 27   when it happened you told me not to ask you to stay that i needed to respect your boundaries and your word   when i had tried to leave you, mind there were four hour discussions of why this wasn't necessary promises made for better behaviour i gave you space to evolve i gave you time because i loved you, and i… View More

"Forgiveness is giving up all hope of having a better past" - Lily Tomlin   I masturbated for the first time since you left me.   just letting my mind wash over thoughts of letting… View More

Trigger warning: Abuse, mention of roots of Thanksgiving I tend to be fairly good at finding things to be grateful for every day, so in some… View More

Just in case I was feeling overly confident about where I stand in the BDSM "community", I found myself on the receiving end of event expulsion thanks to… View More

Wow. I'm listening to 90s music (currently "Fade Into You" by Mazzy Star) and going through my livejournal while piecing together a confessional entry on threesomes. Having had an amazing one this last weekend (which you'll hear more about… View More