This is all still a little raw for me, but a few days ago, my girlfriend and I split up. It was mutual, in a way- we both felt like things were stagnating in a place we didn't want to be in. Neither of us was enjoying the sex. We both felt taken advantage of, in different ways. I know she lied to me for months (she called it "managing" me)- she says I lied to her, though I'm still not clear what about. I felt like she was selfish, and… View More

(title from the Violent Femmes) Breakups, while painful, are also an excuse for me to delve whole-heartedly into my favourite breakup songs. I have so many, particularly as I… View More

wegotism (no 'u' in moving on... but there is in 'future'...) (2003) you say i mirror your interior, the things you hide behind your eyes you tell me that you want to reach in the looking glass it's hard to piece back together a past when it's been smashed stained colors and made beautiful, worshiped like a church and i think you're still… View More

"Forgiveness is giving up all hope of having a better past" - Lily Tomlin   I masturbated for the first time since you left me.   just letting my mind wash over thoughts of letting… View More

Trigger warning: Abuse, mention of roots of Thanksgiving I tend to be fairly good at finding things to be grateful for every day, so in some… View More

Trigger Warning: This discusses abuse, why someone would stay in an abusive situation, self-blame, loss of friends. It's part of a series about losing… View More

"Man Will Pay Good Money for Thin, White Girlfriend" headlines stated when they were being kind(ish), while other news outlets dubbed him "the worst person in the world" and "a… View More

Just in case I was feeling overly confident about where I stand in the BDSM "community", I found myself on the receiving end of event expulsion thanks to… View More

I'm not really a video game person, it's true. I think I had a Super Nintendo as a kid, but my cats ate the cord. So, computers it was. I used to sit at my desk playing… View More

I'm sitting here getting ready for a date in which I anticipate having some hot, rough, balls-to-the-wall fucking. So I'm wearing my sex clothes- light… View More