I always thought that the way in which my muscles spend more time tense than relaxed was normal. I figured waking up in the middle of the night because… View More

I have made it my mantra ever since my last suicide attempt, now almost 2 1/2 years ago, that vulnerability is strength. I tell myself that, I tell my friends that, it informs my writing. It's a concept… View More

“What happens when people open their hearts?" "They get better.” ― Haruki… View More

I have a particularly uneasy relationship with food. Buying it, cooking it, remembering to eat it. I will go hungry for hours, sometimes days when the headweasels are particularly bad. I develop this dread of… View More

When I was a teenager, into my early twenties, most of my friends were boys. I dismissed or stifled socially coded feminine interests… View More

"I can almost touch the soil beneath your whisperI can almost feel the hopes you left behindI can almost touch the soil beneath your whisperI can almost feel the hopes you left… View More

Wow. I'm listening to 90s music (currently "Fade Into You" by Mazzy Star) and going through my livejournal while piecing together a confessional entry on threesomes. Having had an amazing one this last weekend (which you'll hear more about… View More

"She said I don't know if I've ever been good enoughI'm a little bit rustyAnd I think my head is caving inAnd I don't know if I've ever been… View More

With this post, I am founding a new category- it's the poly PTSD category, yessir! Because I have a lot of trigger points around poly and it seems like when I talk about it on social media, many… View More

There are only a handful of things I like to be playfully competitive about. The occasional Scrabble game. Costuming for an… View More