To Have Without HoldingMarge Piercy Learning to love differently is hard,love with the hands wide open, lovewith the doors banging on their hinges,the cupboard unlocked, the windroaring and whimpering in the roomsrustling the sheets and snapping the blindsthat thwack like rubber bandsin an open palm. It hurts to love wide openstretching the muscles that feelas if they… View More

"In the spirit of community and BDSM as a lifestyle, Acworth wants to transform the armory's top floor into a series of Victorian/Georgian-inspired rooms where couples will live and fuck on camera 24-7. Participants will be given hierarchical positions — from maid to master of the house — and live according to the rules of domination and submission. Acworth's already started designing the grand dining room, inspired by the sets in Remains… View More

I masturbate in the near-dark. This is partially because it helps me to focus on the task, dare I say it, at hand, but also because when I masturbate I am flooded with shame. I'm not the sort of girl who was brought up in a culture of shame. I was brought up to explore my kinks freely, and to figure out if and how I could play with them consensually and safely. I'm out as everything- kinky, poly, trysexual, a sex worker- but this part… View More

"What gift do you think a good servant has that separates them from the others? It's the gift of anticipation. And I'm a good servant. I'm better than good. I'm the best. I'm the perfect servant. I know when they'll be hungry and the food is ready. I know when they'll be tired and the bed is turned down. I know it before they know it themselves." -Gosford Park I harbor, among my darker secrets, a desire for a ladies… View More

I'm doing as well this trip as I did last time, but I think I've realized a few things about tours to cities- Saturday is not a day to get any work… View More

I didn't know how it would make me feel, wrapping his body in cling film. When I had seen photos on the internet I thought it looked messy, maybe a bit silly- I secretly harbored fantasies about writing on their bodies in sharpies, marking off cuts of meat, but didn't think it'd be something I would be that into in real life. It was quick and easy, but aesthetically I figured it'd not do much for me. I had tried bondage tape, sure,… View More

I really enjoy being here in Edinburgh. I'm not sure what, specifically, it is, if it's anything specific at all. There are aspects I enjoy… View More

You definitely have some gothicness going on, but you're far from being a stereotypical goth. You enjoy certain elements of goth culture, but you're not going to be into something simply because it's… View More

Wow. All I can say, really, is wow.  I'm still recovering from Night of the Senses, which apparently used to be called the Sex Maniacs Ball. I went with my girlfriend and my client-cum-thingboy, and had an amazing time. You know when you do something and you didn't realize how much you needed it til afterwards? That was my experience in so many ways. My libido is back, I feel glowy and cuddly and sexy and happy, and I… View More

My partner sent me an article about a grad student auctioning off her virginity. I'm frustrated at how many people feel that because she's made this choice, she should get HIV, or die, or become pregnant, or feel terrible about herself. Like it's ok to wish horrible things on whores,… View More

"Kitty Stryker" is my work name, but it's also the name I go by in the day-to-day- most people call me by it, and while it's… View More

Do NOT call me "darling", "sweetie", "luv", "cutie", or any other name like that until we've met. And even then, proceed with caution. I really hate those sorts of pet names, particularly from men I don't know. If you aren't paying me, you aren't paying me enough to patronize me. Oh, wait, this is why I do sex work- because NO JOB will pay me enough to patronize me. It would be a whole lot. In fact, I don't know if there's a… View More

I was joking with a friend about this- the client who says "just do what you want". What I want would go in this order- -you pay me and I leave, nothing else happens-you pay me and then clean my house and then leave-you pay me and I tie you up, leave you in a corner while I read, and then untie you and leave-you pay me and I hit you with things til I'm bored/satisfied then I leave Oh, and I don't dress… View More

This weekend was Skin Two weekend, which gets a lot of people in a tizzy- flurries of latex, rushing about from party to party, all sorts of excitement. Me, well, I like my 11pm bedtime, so I just go for the shopping. The shopping was reasonable- a lot like LAM usually except with more stuff for the boys this time, I found. There aren't the same sort of "con deals" you get with comic conventions or even the Kinky Flea in… View More

"...nations would tease each other until they developed eating disorders. " Hah! Ok, ok, just kidding. Or am I? It's sad, but I think the show "When Women Rule the World" is basically out to say "look, see what happens when we put women in charge? They can't corral others into doing what needs to be done, they become… View More

Usually, when I'm on the phone having phone sex, I end up masturbating. I generally start out thinking "oh, god, whatever," rolling my eyes in the mirror at the fantasies that, to them, seem very taboo and unique and that, to me, are heterosexist propaganda studies. But more often than not, I get caught up in a piece of it, and end up rubbing one out, often with the attitude of "well, what else am I going to do?" Oftentimes I cum. I… View More