 You definitely have some gothicness going on, but you're far from being a stereotypical goth. You enjoy certain elements of goth culture, but you're not going to be into something simply because it's goth. It's likely that you're the type of person who totally defies labels. Good for you! If you are into something, it's because you sincerely love it. Not because it projects a certain image. |
So, only 52% anymore. I doubt I'll ever go below that- Goth will always be at least a little special to me.
It was the first place I felt like I belonged, back when I was 15 or so. I had generally played with the aesthetic, and I had always loved men who played with gender- early Marilyn Manson had lovely fashion, just didn't go for his music. Or whiteface- that interest came later. ::laughs::
I sort of came into Goth through two routes- music, via my parents, and in a quest for clothes that fit. I tried being preppy, but GAP and Old Navy didn't make clothes that fit (I remember begging my parents for those adidas pants that button down the sides... yeah, can you imagine it?)
Goth clothes were interesting and fit, and I began to play with fabrics and creativity in my clothes. I got a bit into fetish clothes, but always things that covered my whole body- dresses to my ankles, pants that covered me. Baggy pants. Tee shirts.
I played with graver stuff as well, as you can see from this photo. I'm 18, very uncomfortable with my body, in an apartment that would lead me to feel more and more isolated. But I was beginning to realize how much kink meant to me- being Goth had put me in contact with a lot of geeks and a lot of fetishy people, contacts and context that is now far closer to me than Goth. In this photo, even, I'm wearing a Death shirt from the Sandman series. :)
I really embraced being Goth. I worked at melancholy the way other people work at crafts- sometimes I think I went into crazy relationships just so I had something to write melodramatic poetry about. There's a painting behind me of a tree, all crimson and grey, with a skull in the tree and a bloody looking sky. Goth enough for you? I even had a fish named Angst.
It took a long time for me to become comfortable with my body, and even longer to be comfortable with what got me hot. Even now it sometimes scares me, what I masturbate to, what makes me pussy swell. Goth gave me some sort of community, people who weren't scared and were fascinated by the things that squicked others- blood, fear, knives, pain, blasphemy. And I liked the juxtaposition of the sharps and the blood with the velvet and lace.
Eventually though I was no longer depressed or interested in wearing black every day for every occasion. I began to wear denims, brown, golds, instead of black, red, and silver. What is a girl who loves fashion and corsets and combining things that don't necessarily go to do?
Enter steampunk-
Your result for The Steampunk Style Test...
The Aristocrat
57% Elegant, 45% Technological, 40% Historical, 48% Adventurous and 23% Playful!
You are the Aristocrat, the embodiment of steampunk elegance and poise. For you, dressing steampunk is first and foremost about simply looking good, with accessories and details to follow. However, this does not mean that you ignore the demands of creating a “steampunk look.” Your outfits weave together a balance between technology and style, and between period accuracy and beautiful anachronism. While your fashion inspiration may come from anywhere across the Victorian social spectrum, you always find a way to make your outfit beautiful. You will probably be found in the clothes of the steam age elite simply because of the greater elegance available to them. Chances are you dress this way because you like it, and you would still dress in this manner even if steampunk was not a popular interest.
With steampunk I've been able to straddle the line between past and future in a way that's fun and intriguing. I've found myself inspired all over again. Sadly I don't have enough space to build up a wardrobe to support my habit! Instead I think I'm pressuring the switchboy to fulfill my fantasies by dressing up like a steampunk dandy. It looks good though. And while a lot of people dress Goth at a fetish club, dressing all steampunk-y is more rare and much more interesting. In a room of black, browns and blues will stand out for sure.
Thinking about this and browsing the clothing sites has led me back to my desire to have a valet, all dressed impeccably to help me dress and plan my day.
I wish I was staying here more than ever.
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