There's a big difference between London and San Francisco when it comes to emotional boundaries. In London, it's a joke, but only half of one, when people discuss the British "stiff upper lip". You are encouraged to keep your eyes down and your mouth shut when it comes to the emotional side of things- it's ok to have feelings, as long as you keep them to yourself. This is particularly true if you're male, though it's not exclusive to… View More

I know I haven't been blogging as frequently as I used to- what with being sick, and the holidays, and moving back to California for a while, it's been hard to find space to write and things to write about. However, I'm likely to whip out a few entries between tonight and tomorrow, as I've come across a few things I want to blog while they're on my mind. So, gentle and not-so-gentle readers alike, bear with me as I write furiously to make up… View More

"Have you ever been in love? Horrible, isn't it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens your heart and it means someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses. You build up this whole armor, for years, so nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life. You give them a piece of you. They don't ask for it. They do something… View More

Well, to clarify, he was a douche. I should've known. When I told him that I didn't know what sortof precautions another girl might have he said "I'm born and bred here, I don't give a fuck what you want or need" to which I said "well, never mind then- I'll blacklist you, toodles" Any decent guy will understand that their fantasy comes second to our safety.… View More

Miss Calico has posted something about the risk factor of sex work. She says, "But I have always felt vulnerable to violence and rape, whether or not I chose to charge money or be sexual. If sex work is a place of additional danger, I believe we live in a world that is ready to learn new attitudes — and oh, I want to dictate… View More

So I got a client asking me if I offered a discount on Christmas. Considering there's no public transit and the cabs charge extra to run on the holiday, WHY would I work for any cheaper? If anything I should get time and a… View More

"you walk through my walls like a ghost on tv- you penetrate me and my little pink heart is on its little brown raft floating out to sea and what can i say but i'm wired this way and you're wired to me and what can i do but wallow in you unintentionally?" -Grey, Ani Difranco This song has been pulling at my heart as the days creep forwards when I'll have to go… View More

First it was a stint talking about phone sex work for Current TV's Sex and Money- http://filmtv.entertainment-focus.com/news119.php Then it was the discussion of the Ladies High Tea and Pornography Society for Generation Sex- unfortunately, no link, though I have had people ask "was that you??" Then it was being interviewed in the Independent about how I feel about the trafficking… View More

Every day I fall in love with my life all over again. The last week has been awhirl with going to see Avenue Q with E, having a getting-to-know-you date with T, rope bondage fun with TB and some really fun work sessions that have served to excite and inspire me all over again. Highlights have included: -giggling short but sweet pillow fights-dark confessions whispered as hot skin touches hot skin-geeky client that… View More

Every day feels like a weight, heavy in my heart, adding to this sense of depression I keep trying to push back, I keep trying to ignore. I don’t want to go back to California. Sure, it’s a great place, filled with amazing people, and it’s creative and inspiring and NOT LONDON. It’s not easy to be a sex worker in San Francisco. First there’re the laws that keep you constantly looking over your shoulder and trying to work out… View More