Well, to clarify, he was a douche. I should've known. When I told him that I didn't know what sortof precautions another girl might have he said "I'm born and bred here, I don't give a fuck what you want or need" to which I said "well, never mind then- I'll blacklist you, toodles" Any decent guy will understand that their fantasy comes second to our safety.… View More

Miss Calico has posted something about the risk factor of sex work. She says, "But I have always felt vulnerable to violence and rape, whether or not I chose to charge money or be sexual. If sex work is a place of additional danger, I believe we live in a world that is ready to learn new attitudes — and oh, I want to dictate… View More

So I got a client asking me if I offered a discount on Christmas. Considering there's no public transit and the cabs charge extra to run on the holiday, WHY would I work for any cheaper? If anything I should get time and a… View More

"you walk through my walls like a ghost on tv- you penetrate me and my little pink heart is on its little brown raft floating out to sea and what can i say but i'm wired this way and you're wired to me and what can i do but wallow in you unintentionally?" -Grey, Ani Difranco This song has been pulling at my heart as the days creep forwards when I'll have to go… View More

First it was a stint talking about phone sex work for Current TV's Sex and Money- http://filmtv.entertainment-focus.com/news119.php Then it was the discussion of the Ladies High Tea and Pornography Society for Generation Sex- unfortunately, no link, though I have had people ask "was that you??" Then it was being interviewed in the Independent about how I feel about the trafficking… View More

Every day I fall in love with my life all over again. The last week has been awhirl with going to see Avenue Q with E, having a getting-to-know-you date with T, rope bondage fun with TB and some really fun work sessions that have served to excite and inspire me all over again. Highlights have included: -giggling short but sweet pillow fights-dark confessions whispered as hot skin touches hot skin-geeky client that… View More

Every day feels like a weight, heavy in my heart, adding to this sense of depression I keep trying to push back, I keep trying to ignore. I don’t want to go back to California. Sure, it’s a great place, filled with amazing people, and it’s creative and inspiring and NOT LONDON. It’s not easy to be a sex worker in San Francisco. First there’re the laws that keep you constantly looking over your shoulder and trying to work out… View More

After my last blog I got this email from someone who's close to me and knows quite a bit about how I act... she said some great shit, and with her permission I'm going to post it here for reference. *************************Hi Kitty- I'm sending this email rather than as a comment, because i don't know what you might want to share. But yeah- your concerns are valid. You do have an ability to push people; it's both… View More

"It's easier to beg forgiveness than to ask permission". Is this true? Is this the way I've been operating? I wonder sometimes if I'm so interested in taking care of my needs and getting what I want that I steamroll over others. Actually, I don't wonder- I know it happens. I'm very sure of myself and what I want, and I think people cave. I mean, I can be very persuasive when there's something I want, and... well, as one of my sweeties… View More

"He uses duct tape and plastic wrap". Coupled with tossing a girl onto the bed for passionate fighting/fucking... Is it any wonder I love Dexter? I've been dreaming of duct tape and plastic wrap for the past few weeks. Imagining his flesh straining against the wrap, crinkling lightly as he shifts... the duct tape winding around his legs, his chest, pressed against his lips, his eyes slightly widened, rimmed in black and… View More

I did two tarot readings, and both came up with similar themes- death, rebirth, renewal after difficult circumstances, being tested to see what you’re made of, exploring your shadows to truly see your light. I suspect this indicates the next few months will be challenging and hard, but that this is where I decide if I am ready to give up old habits and start new ones. This is the sort of thing that will forge me, if I let it. When… View More