So, I've been silent on this blog for a while.

This is, in part, because I've been trapped in Poland.

I got denied entry to the UK, due to my volunteer work (which apparently counts the same as paid work, which means I was working illegally) and sent back to Krakow, where I've been cooling my heels and trying to get a visa.

Being in a country where the women are still unable to get birth control or abortions regularly and safely, and where homosexuals have a Tolerance March instead of a Pride Parade, has been sort of hellish for me. I desperately miss my sex work, my friends at the volunteer gig, my lovers, and my home. I feel like I haven't been able to truly mourn the loss of Greebo yet. I don't know if I'll be getting a visa or not, but I feel fairly confident I'll have enough paperwork to enter the UK.

It's just been a huge financial drain, and a bigger emotional one. I thought I'd be able to do some phone or cam work, but I've felt so out of whack that I decided I would wait on it. Maybe this is a big kick in the pants to take time off, or just to do something different for a while. I was having burnout before, and then all this was a totally different burnout. Time to take a deep breath..?

I'll be returning to California in September, for sure, if not before. I dread it, but I feel a little excited as well. Being in Krakow has reminded me how open and free California really is.