Thanks to the incredible generosity of a particular secret sponsor (who will simply be named Pornbot) I'm going to be heading out to my very first Feminist Porn Awards in Toronto to cheer on IndiePornRevolution (up for Best Website) along with various TROUBLEFilms titles including one I'm in with the luscious Betty Blac, Hard Femme (see the whole list here).

As the PR/social media kitten for TROUBLEFilms I'm getting to livetweet, blog, and take behind-the-scenes photos of all the action, which is really exciting! I'm hoping it'll give me a chance to get to know various IPR Foxes who will be present as well, such as Wolf Hudson, Arabelle Raphael, Zahra Stardust, April Flores, Michelle Austin, Tobi Hill-Meyer and others who aren't Bay Area based. I'm having all the usual high femme flutters about what to wear, whether to bring my laptop or just my tablet, how to do my hair... I'm certainly bouncing up and down, but I also want to make a good impression. I've got a list in my head of what dresses to wear though I'm a bit afraid I'm going to freeze my nipples off!

The Feminist Porn Awards is in its 9th year, having been started by toy store Good For Her as a way of acknowledging porn that was feminist in its production, gaze, and values. It's the largest and longest running awards ceremony of its kind. I'm glad to be a part of something so iconic, especially as I had such an interesting and fun time at the BBW FanFest.

After the Feminist Porn Awards, I'm also going to be presenting at the Feminist Porn Conference with Tina Horn, Siouxsie Q, Pinky Lee and possibly other performers on porn and privacy, a subject I've written a lot about and experienced my own clashes with. I'm particularly interested in privacy as it pertains to behaviour on and off set, and if someone acts unethically off set, is it the place/responsibility of an ethical or feminist porn director to take note of it? I find the topic multifaceted and very interesting.

Other topics I can't wait to sit in on would be Maggie Mayhem's  lecture on porn before WWII, Loree Erickson facilitating Queercrip Politics of Re/Making Feminist Porn, Feminist Pornography: What It Is, What It Isn’t, and Why It Matters with a panel made up of Lynn Comella, Courtney Trouble, Ms. Naughty, and Tanesha H.D... I think it's going to be a fantastic experience all around. I hope to learn a whole lot and network with some of the best trailblazers in the feminist porn world.

I've really only had experience with porn companies that care (or claim to care) about feminism and ethical values, so to take those experiences into the realm of this sex worker space promises to be really intriguing. If I'm honest, I'm kind of nervous- I'm pretty shy and so many of the people I know are all buddies so I'm a little nervous about being left behind! But I'm also happy that I'll be getting to see my girlfriend from out in London, who lives in Toronto and will be a really lovely, supportive anchor for all the social madness. Maybe I can persuade her to come with me on all these adventures!

Interested in any of this? Well, if you're in Toronto (or can make it out!) then register for the Feminist Porn Conference here,  or check out the various events (starting April 2nd with a fisting workshop!) by clicking here. If you can't make it out, you can follow the Awards at @fempornawards, the conference at @femporncon, or TROUBLEFilms livetweeting on @IndiePorn. I'll be making sure to post regular updates, so if you have questions, keep in touch!

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